ELSEWHERE

Should probably thing abkut why the self has been so incredibly distant lately, but I’m too tired. Back to sleep I hope.

i've been finding myself really wanting to ask online people to use e/eir for me, in writing only. i keep waiting to see when/if it will pass rather than asking.

i don't know that this is a gender thing or even so much a self-state thing as... an outsider thing? lately? i don't know.

i will keep thinking about it.

My brain is doing something really weird tonight, and I can’t really put it into words, and don’t like it.

It feels. Off. Just slightly uncomfortable. Just a tiny bit unsettled. Or maybe a tiny bit disgusted?

I don’t know. But I don’t like it.

Come on, sleep. Let’s call this day over.

Been a while. Some if that's been because the various brains I've been just aren't super up for writing, but a larger part is that the body has been recovering from stuff of one kind or another.

But right /now/, the brain is doing a couple of the sucky things I am super not fond of. Looked at it at therapy last night and it was really hard, and really scary, and I don't know how I feel about that.