This is a very full week for me, and today's one day that doesn't have anything in particular scheduled, so after I fed the cats I went back to bed until 2. Stressful dreams, mostly about trying and failing to make it over to dad's tomorrow, but still a nice rest and good to get some spoons recouped.
I'm up now and have pilled the cat. Yesterday I started giving her three drops of CBD with her pill and last night it seemed to make her more anxious, poor thing. I'm still trying it, but it'll be a bummer if it turns out that it just doesn't work with her system. She has been a bit more active since being on it, and I wonder if she has some joint pain she's been hiding that it's helping with.
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This was in the class group chat and was nice to see! I do worry sometimes about people like, thinking that I'm in the class to show off instead of to learn or something, like I know so much already why am I here and not in the intermediate class, like some kind of variant of imposter syndrome (impostering as an amateur). I do am the first to answer the teacher's questions nine times out of ten, and would be more if I didn't actively try to give other people the chance to answer sometimes, and am often answering people's questions in the chat, but like. I came in here with basic knowledge and, importantly, have been listening to the teacher and just, am good at remembering what we've learned in class. And I have not infrequently been wrong, and when I read hiragana that isn't immediately recognisable to me I am halting and slow at sounding it out, so I hope it's obvious that I'm not just showing off. I just always have this worry that people are looking at me like 'what are you doing here' whenever I'm in a group of any kind.
I also just never want to be the person that makes other people feel bad about their own skill levels by comparing them to mine. I do not actually want to be the smartest and best in the class! I will fall off of that pedestal as soon as we move into more complicated territory, because I am exactly the nerd that does really well at the beginning of class and then struggles when 'natural talent' stops giving me a boost.
Anyway! I am happy to help. Is the main point.
Iiii'm going to eat more cereal and watch youtube, I think.