Felt really good at the end of last night even though it was SO MUCH. But it was so much all community, and that's lovely. And then I crashed on my bed still dressed and didn't wake up until five.
I debated actually being up then and I should've taken it --I didn't get out of bed for real until seven, which means I'm probably gonna be a little late to school. Whatever.
Austin has been visiting, so I haven't written much. It is good to have his company, it is complicated to disrupt my schedule.
This week, our goal is to catch up to grading and send a million emails saying "yeah, this child does no work in my class, you wanna talk them into not failing Geometry?"
Had to talk to a deeply unpleasant parent who is big mad her mediocre son behaves poorly in my class. Now I have to attempt to work something out with the son. Hate everything about this.
I like teaching so much, and it is so frustrating how much of my job is doing bullshit instead of teaching.
Washed my hair
My dance class continues to be So Fucking Good
I have a lot to do but Sam is visiting this weekend so that'll be nice but also I have so much to do for work ;_;
I am heinously underslept, and plane hell is not going to help that, but I am halfway packed and can probably do the other half pretty quick at school and so this is all fine.
Am excited to go to California! Not slush! Not work! Yes Fetian!!!
I went to California! I came home from California! I am back to normal schedule which means yesterday I did something like 10.5 hours of active work (okay fine, the last two were a zoom meeting for the union that I only half paid attention to --in my defense, I did contribute some, I just...then also played video games and chatted with Austin).
I did not finish the part of the grading I wanted to do. And I did not prep for today. So I'm up super early so I can do those things.
California adventures made it mostly into my dreamwidth, maybe I should start mirroring posts here? Iunno.
Byeeee.
Quiet weekend, first quiet weekend in ages it seems. Did bellringing. Finally did my grading finishing very late last night. Going on about three hours sleep and also am running a little later to work than I'd like so that's all, uh, hideous.
In my defense it is currently 12 degrees out. I do not want to leave my house!
Brain was pretty bad yesterday, although I am getting some things done. I probably need to be doing less looking at Bluesky and knowing what the state of the world is. Tried to go to bed early, kinda whiffed it, maybe got seven hours anyways?
I think one of my dreams last night had a jumpscare --it was set in a haunted house-- and I made a yelp that might've been real life. Didn't wake up enough to go ask the roommate downstairs.
Today is going to be long day. Work then union stuff immediately afterschool, then dance. Gogogo. Need to prep for at least two of these three things.
It's the five year anniversary of The Day The World Ended. That's not really the right thing to call it, especially because for a while there, things were actually looking really good, and then people got shitty and were allowed to get shitty and had no consequences for being shitty so kept it up. The actual end of the world probably arrives in late 2020, or maybe right after The Shining Moment When Covid Ended in 2021, where we had a brief window of "everyone is able to get their vaccines, we did it folks" and "......whoops".
I have a lot of feelings and they're all shitty cynical ones, apparently.
Also my grandparents died last week, which sucks because death is bad, and it sucks because death logistics are hard, and it sucks because the memorial is very likely to be during Youth Trad Song weekend which I was very much looking forward to going to. But I suppose it will be nice to go to Maryland and hang with mom instead, and at least this means I can take a day or two off work. I have never taken as many days off in a single year as I am doing this one, it's wild.
(I don't really want abundant sympathy, beyond a "yeah, that sucks man". It's not that I don't care very much for them --my grandfather especially was an extremely cool man, most of the time-- but they were also pretty much out of my life anyways due to ongoing sick and etc, and I've mostly made my peace with it. I still need to write a thing, but that's probably not going to happen until tomorrow evening, because I simply do not have enough time before then to have a sobbing breakdown~ and I want to give myself that space if it's what I need).
Anyways.