ELSEWHERE

I have made a chore wheel and titled it the wheel of pain

I think that's a good idea and I hope it works for you!

Why am I awake

(depression but like. Why)

I went ahead and just got up for the day, I did pack a few boxes and tidy some things so I got that going for me

Normally I am a much sturdier person but 34 years of doing everything the hard way has caught up with me and I have the resilience of a wet cardboard box rn

I started a new book and only got 7% before realizing it is a story about domestic violence, which was not at all clear from the description, so that's going in did-not-finish

Looking at the Goodreads description I think I just didn't fully read into the husband being described as "controlling" and it's probably a fine book but for, you know, Some Reason, I do not want to read about intimate partner violence right the now

only just got home holy fuuuuuuuuck what a long day

okay!

Finally got some sleep, although it was split in two. I got an OTC sleep aid med but last night while I was hanging in chat and decompressing (I ended my week with a late baby case so I worked almost a 12 hr shift and my empathy was exhausted) I had a whiskeydrank, and I didn't want to take a sleep aid after consuming alcohol, so I went to bed normal style. I once more woke up at around 2 AM, but by then it had been quite a few hours since my whiskeydrank, so I took the sleep aid med and waited for that and/or the placebo effect to kick in and managed to stay sleeping until around 7:30 this morning.

I'm sluggish but feel rested, I think, and am definitely going to take it easy today.

there should be a fucking support group when your ex is a fucking tiktok girly

see this tiktok?

That's my bathroom, when Sophie still lived here, and what she doesn't mention is that because of the humidity in the bathroom after showers and such the colorful film constantly fell off and eventually I just took it down entirely. The electrical tape, not a tape meant to be on GLASS, left residue that is still there---

---and I'll either have to scrape it off with the supplies and scraping tool I bought specifically to undo the other brainrot fucking tiktok damage Sophie has done to this apartment, or leave it and see if my complex charges me a cleaning fee for it