Promiseland

[Fetian]

I'm in a pretty good mood! Not for any particular reason, brain chemistry is just cooperating tonight. Just went to bed and was like 'hey I'm not miserable, neat'

Did date with Sor earlier, which was nice. We talked, then watched an Infinity Train, then a Taskmaster, then talked a little more, as is our usual routine. We have scheduled another in a couple weeks.

And Lee and I watched a couple callmekevins (let's play youtuber (what a nonsense phrase that would be if you were unfamiliar with the concept)) between Sordate ending and Leebed beginning. And then I went through my internet feed for a bit before turning in myself. It is late but not too late and I hope to be asleep before that changes.

All afternoon I was having a 'it is difficult and not worth it to get out of bed today' sort of day, and month, and months, so being in a better mood now is a nice turn. It hopefully lasts but I'm not really optimistic about it

[Fetian]

Rude of society to not hibernate over winter, honestly

[Fetian]

Fell into a hole of rereading old-ish chatlogs so I'm up later than I intended to be but it's not too late and I'm going to bed now, so it's okay

I have gotten a little farther in the myth-making, but the nature of this thing is that every time I brainstorm up something it just means I have kicked the problem down the line and need to come up with the next thing. This is to say that I am right now coming up with a creation myth of the 'first there was god 1, and then god 1 made god 2, and then god 1 made god 3' etc. And I need to think of, how did god 1 make god 2? And then how was god 3 made? Also etc. I am on the third step and need to come up with what Lirasal uses to create the Sun, with a general theme of things being made from parts of a carcass, or similar.

It'll come to me.

Anyway! Bed. I have to go to the credit union tomorrow so I want to be up and at 'em early enough that I'm not rushing to be ready for that or full of anxiety. Well, I'll probably be full of anxiety either way, but full of feeling-unprepared-anxiety.

[Fetian]

Fuck I did it again

[Fetian]

Mission failed, mostly because I woke up at 7 AM feeling ill. So I ended up sleeping in and I could honestly continue to do so

But I set myself a time limit that would have me getting ready without having to rush so I think it'll be alright

[Fetian]

I have successfully opened an account with the credit union!

[Fetian]

In other financial news, next month I'll have paid off both Oz's vet bills and the money Lee loaned me a while back, and I'll be getting about $100 more every month due to cost of living increases. This is the most I've ever seen that go up, which says a lot about the current state of the economy. Generally it's like a $10 increase.

After those debts get paid off I have another obligation I need to fulfil, and then after that I can actually start saving money again! You know, assuming I'm not spending everything on groceries. It feels extremely nice to be almost out of this, though.

[Fetian]

I am very crashed. Definitely an early bed night

[Fetian]

I have about half the teket creation myth figured out. I also have stolen three more blankets from the cupboard, and rearranged some power cables to put the space heater and the SAD lamp on a timer, so they'll turn on automatically in the morning and hopefully stop me from sleeping until two PM

I unfortunately forgot to do the chore list until just now, and I'm already in bed and need to go to sleep, so that's going to wait until morning to get done

But, sleep.

[Fetian]

Somewhat predictably I have not been able to fall asleep