Promiseland

[Fetian]

I have been so fucking hungry today, like to the extent that it feels like my stomach is so empty that the idea of putting anything in it is nauseating. And I have been eating; I've eaten donuts, I've eaten cookies, I've eaten chips, I've eaten five sandwiches, over the course of the day. And half an hour after anything I'm starving again.

Trying to keep myself fed is hard enough without my metabolism pulling bullshit like this. I keep not wanting to sleep because if I do I'll just wake up hungry again anyway, so I keep trying to eat first but nothing appeals and it won't last

It's a real pain in the ass

[knightofcups]

I hate this so much. I feel like that never-ending hungry should not be allowed to happen at the same time when food just is meh. EITHER food can be meh, OR you can be absurdly hungry. That both can happen at once is just excessive.

Good thoughts (and maybe hot soup?) at you.

[Fetian]

Been a rough few days, very loose joints making problems. Fibula dislocated or subluxed (the line between those is not clear-cut) a couple days ago bad enough that it took a day to stop feeling weird about it, and today my sternum has been just-so out of place. Hips have also been bad but in more of the usual way.

Anyway, so been pretty bed-bound. Been doing more staying up late and sleeping in, but with the weather like this I don't super care about fixing that. It continues to rain pretty constantly.

Also with joints being like this I haven't been practicing the skateboard, for obvious reasons. Would like to get back to that, but also also with the weather like this I'm also also not in a rush about it. On the other hand I have been back at the Japanese studies - I'm close to halfway through the Pimsleur course, at which point I have a couple of things to look at moving on to

Stomach has also been having issues, reflux has been really acting up for quite a while now. I'll need to get more pills for that eventually but for now I'm rationing them.

I'm gonna go read internet things for a while and then go to bed. I got the new Wayward Children book in the mail today but I'm not going to start it tonight, I don't think. Brain is too fuzzy to give it the focus it deserves.

[Fetian]

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I want to be sent down one of these

I think that would fix me

[Fetian]

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Oh my god, could it be? Is there an end in sight?

[Fetian]

If I were emperor of the world I would ban country flags that are just three or four equal stripes

[Fetian]

You gotta put something on there with the stripes

[Fetian]

The new Wayward Children hit me before the story even started

[Fetian]

Didn't feel great yesterday, with a little bit of a raw throat and stuffy sinuses, and feel even worse today with the addition of a headache and nausea. Guess I've caught a bug from somewhere.

 
I've been shifting my sleep schedule forward to take better advantage of being able to do things at night. Have so far been having trouble going to bed on time and not even later, but hopefully it starts working. Have been getting more chores and such done, at least.

 
Got a jury summons in the mail Friday which will need dealing with because my disability prevents me from sitting in a chair long enough to serve without causing pain/dislocations. I'll need to call my doctor and ask if he'll write a letter excusing me, which is causing Anxieties. I'm resentful of the whole thing because I have already twice now given them doctor letters saying as such and been granted permanent exclusion from serving, but I guess they just throw those out every ten years or something, you know, just in case my genes stopped being mutated.

Governments ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 
Started trying to learn javascript again, I'm still not sure if I want to use Twine or RpgMaker for Homebound but javascript will be useful for it either way. Knowing enough to know the limitations I'll be running into with either option will let me know which way I'll want to go.

[Fetian]

Today Oz woke me up after five hours of sleep, so naturally I wasn't feeling good, and after more sleep I continued to feel not good. I did make myself take a shower in the evening, and by dinner I was feeling mostly normal. I'm still a little off but I think I'll have kicked this by tomorrow, provided the cat lets me sleep.

Tonight is going to be more javascript lessons and video games -- I've been playing Fable: the Lost Chapters and I think I'm almost done with it. I'm playing as an evil character for the first time, and then when I'm done with it I'm probably going to do another goodie-goodie run. I grew up with Fable and used to play it so much I'd get the Tetris effect with the UI, though playing it on a widescreen monitor/television spreads everything out so much that I'm not getting that now. I've never finished it before, but I do love it, even if it shows its age in a lot of ways.

I am also hungry and might figure out something to eat before I settle down to do things.