Promiseland

[Fetian]

Hmmmmmmmm...!

I just read a few studies on OTC-available vitamins/minerals being used successfully to treat ADHD symptoms. I've been privately bemoaning lately that ADHD medications aren't really an option for me (setting aside that I have other issues making it difficult to be me these past someodd years), so I'm intrigued. I know I'm supposed to be saving money (and I have been being very good about it and deserve a cookie that I won't have to pay for), but I went ahead and ordered some to try. Call that my discretionary funds for this month

I don't expect any miracles, but I am very curious

[Fetian]

Class done! We went over homework, just going down the roster and having everyone read a line from their own submissions, and the number of people who couldn't read their own work was, hmmmmmm. Wonder how many people were copying out of the answer book!

There was one guy who had an incorrect answer and was like 'Yeah, my son looked at it and was like 'what the heck are you doing'', which is adorable. He is also sad that he's so behind on being able to read hiragana than the rest of the class, which is definitely a perception issue because my dude, most of the class was unable to read hiragana.

After that we went through some reading practice with the textbook, and before we started she was like 'Does anyone have the PDF?' and like a fool I answered, so she had me screenshare my textbook instead of fighting her computer to pull hers up. So first we had a 'scroll down, no back up, no down, no the other down' 'Hold on, I think there's lag making this more difficult than it needs to be, what exactly do you want on the screen?', but after that it was pretty smooth, and after break she brought her own textbook up instead of cribbing off of mine.

Our homework is writing out more flashcards, and that seems like it's going to continue throughout the class so I'm going to have to go buy some more index cards. Possibly immediately, because I'm not sure where I put the ones I found and also don't know if I have enough to make what I need for the homework. We're also filling out some more hiragana practice sheets, and I'm going to pop some more stuff into anki and then update it.

Gonna give myself like, 15-20 minutes to just sit for a bit and then I'll get started on all that.

[Fetian]

Did the non-flashcards homework, and updated the anki deck (I don't know if anyone is actually using it, but it has 2 downloads from the anki site, so. Maybe it's helping someone!) I'm holding off on the flashcards assignment both just because I don't want to dig up the index cards yet, and because it for some reason exists as two assignments in canvas? Someone needs to tell the professor that and I don't want it to have to be me, and I also don't want to have to just, like, pick one and hope

(And also I don't want to do the work and then have to wait to upload it, because I prefer my whole workflow to be cohesive. If I start something and then have to stop, it's much harder to pick it up again)

So that'll probably be a weekend thing. For now, it's almost time for ash to get home, so I'm going to hang out a bit here and then hang out with him there

[Fetian]

Just ran out of snacks, sigh

[Fetian]

This is a very full week for me, and today's one day that doesn't have anything in particular scheduled, so after I fed the cats I went back to bed until 2. Stressful dreams, mostly about trying and failing to make it over to dad's tomorrow, but still a nice rest and good to get some spoons recouped.

I'm up now and have pilled the cat. Yesterday I started giving her three drops of CBD with her pill and last night it seemed to make her more anxious, poor thing. I'm still trying it, but it'll be a bummer if it turns out that it just doesn't work with her system. She has been a bit more active since being on it, and I wonder if she has some joint pain she's been hiding that it's helping with.

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This was in the class group chat and was nice to see! I do worry sometimes about people like, thinking that I'm in the class to show off instead of to learn or something, like I know so much already why am I here and not in the intermediate class, like some kind of variant of imposter syndrome (impostering as an amateur). I do am the first to answer the teacher's questions nine times out of ten, and would be more if I didn't actively try to give other people the chance to answer sometimes, and am often answering people's questions in the chat, but like. I came in here with basic knowledge and, importantly, have been listening to the teacher and just, am good at remembering what we've learned in class. And I have not infrequently been wrong, and when I read hiragana that isn't immediately recognisable to me I am halting and slow at sounding it out, so I hope it's obvious that I'm not just showing off. I just always have this worry that people are looking at me like 'what are you doing here' whenever I'm in a group of any kind.

I also just never want to be the person that makes other people feel bad about their own skill levels by comparing them to mine. I do not actually want to be the smartest and best in the class! I will fall off of that pedestal as soon as we move into more complicated territory, because I am exactly the nerd that does really well at the beginning of class and then struggles when 'natural talent' stops giving me a boost.

Anyway! I am happy to help. Is the main point.

 
Iiii'm going to eat more cereal and watch youtube, I think.

[Fetian]

My shoulder has been kind of out of joint for a few days and it's getting really old

[Fetian]

I've gone ahead and sent an email to the professor that the homework assignment got duplicated, and I guess I could get started on getting that done

[Fetian]

Or not -- where the index cards ended up was 'all over the floor' when the thing they were on got knocked over, and I definitely don't have 66 of them. So going to need to swing by a store tomorrow and see if I can pick some up

[Fetian]

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my dudes.

learn the hiragana.

[Fetian]

Like if you didn't try so god damn hard to avoid it you'd probably have them memorised by now